life at a standstill

kate voegele's hallelujah in the background.
second cup of coffee to keep me up.

correspondence, relationship, movies, music making, manga, story books, yum-cha sessions, shopping; all pushed aside to make way for studies. hardly the life i want. i wanted a life full of fun; not all-night partying but definitely not one that's filled with only one single monotonous thing. flat. boring yet essential for the future. as always, life is never fair. hardly does it go the way you want it to and there's nothing much you can do, really. we're merely the puppets of something called fate. or whatever it is you want to call it. maybe it's meant to be like this for the greater good. maybe by the time we graduate, we might just be the competent healthcare provider that we're striving so hard to be.. but at the moment, i can't see past eos7 just yet. oh, and there's research too and progress is currently at a halt due to the upcoming eop. when was the last time i watched a movie? when was the last time i had a bottle heinekken with a companion, both sitting back with legs outstretched, relaxed? when was the last time i camwhored? (oh, recently but it was really half-heartedly though.. and my face looks like crap now, no thanks to the lifestyle)

life at a standstill.
why can't time be at a standstill too?
see, unfairness.
T____T

story of the year's tell me in the background.